Just another month passing by like the last. Hopefully it'll go by quickly and w/lots of fun events.
1. Hate it when people put tons of make up on toddlers. Even during dress up. To me it's not ok.
2. 3 yr olds are hilarious story tellers.
3. Got taxes done! We will be rich for a full day once they come in! THEN gone they be......
4. I worked out for a whole 30 mins! THEN I ate Girl Scout Cookies. For shame. But they were delicious.
5. I just realized that one of my cousins is the happiest person I know. And I don't even really know them.
6. I'm 30 and I finally feel it! Come on metabolism! Don't completely breakdown on me now!
7. Girl Scout Cookies are superb.......
8. Sometimes I wish I had a more supportive, and closer family.
9. Gan is a giant 3 yr old. 5t pants here we come!
10. Being a military wife REALLY sucks when your husband is deployed. I feel worse for Gan.
11. Time to make 2012 great by changing my attitude, and try not being so moody. :P
12. *stares at box of Girl Scout Cookies*
13. I heart tacos.....
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Sunday, January 22, 2012
A Passing....
I'm up at 5am. A good friend of mine just lost her dad tonight. Cancer took yet another life out of the world today. It's brought up some awful memories, and regrets from my experience losing a father that I can not change. Though I really wish I could.
I was a teenager. I remember being left in the dark so it "wouldn't hurt me." I remember feeling mad about him being sick. I remember excessively cleaning the cat figurines while grandma watched. Worsely I remember being so mad at him and my mom, going into my room for the night, and waking up to paramedics in our home. Dad had passed, and I regret not telling him I loved him. I regret being that mad teenager not grasping the concept that I would not see my dad anymore.
It was so hard seeing a big, strong man become so frail and weak. Kudos to my mom for sitting there next to him every night, while we hid in our rooms. I should have done better. And now I sit w/all this regret 14 yrs later. Worsely I do not believe in an afterlife. It would make it easier if I actually believed I'd see him again. It'd make it easier cuz I could apologize for not being there, when he needed all the comfort in the world around him to ease him out of this world forever. For that I truely regret, and I will always hold that with me until I pass.
I was a teenager. I remember being left in the dark so it "wouldn't hurt me." I remember feeling mad about him being sick. I remember excessively cleaning the cat figurines while grandma watched. Worsely I remember being so mad at him and my mom, going into my room for the night, and waking up to paramedics in our home. Dad had passed, and I regret not telling him I loved him. I regret being that mad teenager not grasping the concept that I would not see my dad anymore.
It was so hard seeing a big, strong man become so frail and weak. Kudos to my mom for sitting there next to him every night, while we hid in our rooms. I should have done better. And now I sit w/all this regret 14 yrs later. Worsely I do not believe in an afterlife. It would make it easier if I actually believed I'd see him again. It'd make it easier cuz I could apologize for not being there, when he needed all the comfort in the world around him to ease him out of this world forever. For that I truely regret, and I will always hold that with me until I pass.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Quick Quips.
1. Headin' to IA in about 4 days. Got 2 new tires for the front of the car, and updating my maps on gps. Gonna be a llooonnngggg drive. ;P
2. Had fun on a mini trip w/a pal. I'll go more into detail next blog with pictures. Kids acted pretty good, and we got to walk around little shops in a "mini Germany" kinda of town. Only prob was Gan's freak out the first night.
3. Gan is gettin' frustrated, which makes him ExPloDe w/RaGe! He's a total mini Todd. Though on our trip he wanted to beat me up, and just wouldn't stop fighting me the first night. It was wicked weird. He even head butted me! Yes I wept, but took a diff. stagety second night and it went alittle smoother. When we got home and he continued I had to actually spank. I am usually against spanking BUT he was gettin' pretty out of control w/as soon as you didn't do something he liked he wailed on you! and kicked! So much pent up aggression! But momma wins....I can kind of get why he's going coo coo bananas w/missing Daddy ALOT and havin' the Holladay rage thing, but I can only take so much. BUT since I put the smackdown he's acting sweeter, and listening WAY better. Score one for Momma......
4. Todd has super sucky internet now, so he can rarely email. No calls either. Gonna have to start doing snail mail I think. We get to see him next month for Christmas! I'm hopin' to get a hotel room for a night at least cuz how can you have any alone time when staying w/family? None. Hence the hotel night.....or two.....I haven't told Gan about seeing Todd yet cuz he doesn't understand time, so I'll wait til the day before he comes or the morning of......
5. Parenthood is now one of my favorite shows! It is utterly awesome! I hope it stays on for many more seasons! awwww Parenthood.........
6. I recommend the book The Room.....
7. I need to stop stress eating!!!! I was doin' pretty good, and my jeans were fittin' better, but I fell off the healthy wagon.......Anxiety took over, and now I must have fried goodness, w/a side of chocolate.........
That is all for now. It's not much, but I'm kinda tired and my brain isn't functioning. :P Gonna go watch Parenthood...
2. Had fun on a mini trip w/a pal. I'll go more into detail next blog with pictures. Kids acted pretty good, and we got to walk around little shops in a "mini Germany" kinda of town. Only prob was Gan's freak out the first night.
3. Gan is gettin' frustrated, which makes him ExPloDe w/RaGe! He's a total mini Todd. Though on our trip he wanted to beat me up, and just wouldn't stop fighting me the first night. It was wicked weird. He even head butted me! Yes I wept, but took a diff. stagety second night and it went alittle smoother. When we got home and he continued I had to actually spank. I am usually against spanking BUT he was gettin' pretty out of control w/as soon as you didn't do something he liked he wailed on you! and kicked! So much pent up aggression! But momma wins....I can kind of get why he's going coo coo bananas w/missing Daddy ALOT and havin' the Holladay rage thing, but I can only take so much. BUT since I put the smackdown he's acting sweeter, and listening WAY better. Score one for Momma......
4. Todd has super sucky internet now, so he can rarely email. No calls either. Gonna have to start doing snail mail I think. We get to see him next month for Christmas! I'm hopin' to get a hotel room for a night at least cuz how can you have any alone time when staying w/family? None. Hence the hotel night.....or two.....I haven't told Gan about seeing Todd yet cuz he doesn't understand time, so I'll wait til the day before he comes or the morning of......
5. Parenthood is now one of my favorite shows! It is utterly awesome! I hope it stays on for many more seasons! awwww Parenthood.........
6. I recommend the book The Room.....
7. I need to stop stress eating!!!! I was doin' pretty good, and my jeans were fittin' better, but I fell off the healthy wagon.......Anxiety took over, and now I must have fried goodness, w/a side of chocolate.........
That is all for now. It's not much, but I'm kinda tired and my brain isn't functioning. :P Gonna go watch Parenthood...
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Halloween Spook-tacular!
This year's Halloween went good. Gannon could not commit to any costume, and claimed every costume in the stores were "too scary". SO I decided to take regular clothes, and put felt bones on them. At least it'd feel like he was wearing real clothing!----This is what Gan thought about trying on this costume the morning of Halloween. He was not havin' it! He kept saying he was "too sad" to keep it on. What a sillyass.
So thru out the day I kept talkin' up trick-or-treating like it was the best thing EVER. After his nap he was actually psyched for it all, and we didn't have a problem after that. :)--------------------
We met up with some friends and walked a neighborhood. Weirdly not a lot of houses were giving out candy! So after a good 30 mins the tots got tired, and are buckets were still no full! BUT it was enough candy. :P
Gan's cute moments: Hey we're tricking or treating!!! ---to the houses that wouldn't answer.
Showing a guy his loot, who was giving him candy.
Holding Ms. Chloe's hand, and then she got very upset when he let go.
I dressed up as: VICKIE CIRCA LATE 90's! How simple is that? I had all the clothes and chains in my closet. :P Very sad. Just needed my long hair and bangs! :P
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Fort Bliss Housing Part 1.....
So been wanting to post about the housin' situation for awhile, but wanted to gather pics and such. ;) Pics will come in Part 2.
I'm not one to really complain about army life, cuz once you've been in long enough you get how everything flows and why bitch?
Note: I've lived in housing at Ft. Leonard Wood, Schofield Barracks, and Ft. Shafter. Seen housing at Ft. Riley which was nicely renovated...kudos to their housing company.
BUT housing here ridiculous. Here's how they roll.........
Housing does NOT go by the list. If you have the gull to walk in and demand housing they will give it to you right on the spot. I'm all about rules. I waited my year and then went in to ask what was up. Of course got offered an abode and onward to housing we go.........
3 days before move-in date we walked into the office to make sure everything was cool. It was not. They told us our house was not available anymore. Well why didn't you call us weeks ago with this information? Dumbfounded. Got offered another abode....take it or be homeless. Crap shack we come!
Housing here does NOT offer you 2-3 houses before sending you to the bottom of the housing list. They don't follow the rule, so take what you are offered or back to the bottom you go.....not merrily.....
I CRIED after seein' the abode. They said it was move-in, and it clearly wasn't. Rusted showerhead, kitty litter dumped in the back yard, and a spray painted coffin on the patio. That is naming a few mishaps. What was fixed when we moved in? The showerhead was replaced..............crap shack move in.........
Now before anyone's like "you live onpost for free!". Haha! *rolls on floor dry heaving* We pay $980 for our crap shack..........*sighs*
Usually I'm not about complainin' about housing, BUT there's BRAND NEW housing paying the exact same as we do for our crap shack. If housing would be like how the airforce rolls, or sometimes the marines roll and only take the BAH that the house is worth I wouldn't be writing this blog.
Crap shack description: 60's, under 1000 sq ft of cement/stucco...I think stucco. Single paned windows that are NOT sealed, and unsealed doors. I have a lovely gathering of dirt everyday from the unsealed goodness. Linoleum flooring that is stained, and they WAXED over it. I've heard that they houses used to have hardwood, and they tore it out. Smart cookies. *sarcasm*
That's a wee description.......
Stay tuned for Part 2. Pictures. Like I'd complain w/out evidence. That's not how I roll.....
I'm not one to really complain about army life, cuz once you've been in long enough you get how everything flows and why bitch?
Note: I've lived in housing at Ft. Leonard Wood, Schofield Barracks, and Ft. Shafter. Seen housing at Ft. Riley which was nicely renovated...kudos to their housing company.
BUT housing here ridiculous. Here's how they roll.........
Housing does NOT go by the list. If you have the gull to walk in and demand housing they will give it to you right on the spot. I'm all about rules. I waited my year and then went in to ask what was up. Of course got offered an abode and onward to housing we go.........
3 days before move-in date we walked into the office to make sure everything was cool. It was not. They told us our house was not available anymore. Well why didn't you call us weeks ago with this information? Dumbfounded. Got offered another abode....take it or be homeless. Crap shack we come!
Housing here does NOT offer you 2-3 houses before sending you to the bottom of the housing list. They don't follow the rule, so take what you are offered or back to the bottom you go.....not merrily.....
I CRIED after seein' the abode. They said it was move-in, and it clearly wasn't. Rusted showerhead, kitty litter dumped in the back yard, and a spray painted coffin on the patio. That is naming a few mishaps. What was fixed when we moved in? The showerhead was replaced..............crap shack move in.........
Now before anyone's like "you live onpost for free!". Haha! *rolls on floor dry heaving* We pay $980 for our crap shack..........*sighs*
Usually I'm not about complainin' about housing, BUT there's BRAND NEW housing paying the exact same as we do for our crap shack. If housing would be like how the airforce rolls, or sometimes the marines roll and only take the BAH that the house is worth I wouldn't be writing this blog.
Crap shack description: 60's, under 1000 sq ft of cement/stucco...I think stucco. Single paned windows that are NOT sealed, and unsealed doors. I have a lovely gathering of dirt everyday from the unsealed goodness. Linoleum flooring that is stained, and they WAXED over it. I've heard that they houses used to have hardwood, and they tore it out. Smart cookies. *sarcasm*
That's a wee description.......
Stay tuned for Part 2. Pictures. Like I'd complain w/out evidence. That's not how I roll.....
Friday, October 21, 2011
Almost a month down!
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..." Almost a month down....more to go, but hey look we survived a month! In all actuality the first month is the easiest cuz it feels like they are just out in the field, or at school. So it hasn't felt like he's gonna be gone longer....just hasn't hit yet. You know you're an Army wife when a month is nothin', and you just wanna totally slam your civi peeps cuz they cry about not seein' their hubby for a weekend. Lame. ;P Get a hobby dudes.....
Onward! I have not been hardcore thrifting in a LONG time. So I have nothing to post! Ugh. My duties of thrifting have failed. Fail. I DID buy a Banana Republic shirt for $6! It is purple w/lace and big fun buttons. :) That was a score, and I love it. Love. Mmmmmmm....I want Taco Bell....
Off track.....FOCUS! Wee man has seem to adjust...sort...FINALLY! That past couple days have went by like a breeze. He was very good in Costco today. :) Kudos wee man! Plus he's giving me hug and kisses....my wee man? I know it's insane! Today we was "reading" a book in the cart, but making up his own story to the words. He likes to whisper stuff, and use different voices. Such a performer. At one of my gal's abodes he even put on a princess dress and danced w/the other girls. ;) It was only 5 mins, but it was cute! "He can dance if he wants to...he can leave his friend's behind."<----that would be Todd saying this. ;)
Sent 4 packages to Todd and it costed $50! Not too shabby, but still a blow to the bank account. Hope it all gets to him, cuz he needs this stuff! Poor guy's gotta eat somethin' other then MRE's. :P He'll come back skinnier then me, and Vickie's not havin' that....<---third person talk...coo coo.
Excitement! The weekend of Nov 10th or so me and a gal pal are goin' to Fredricksburg! First overnight outting w/children. I hope to do w/the Gan every month til Daddy comes home, so this will be the first test. Gonna make this kid LOVE to travel. Maybe he'll become a gypsy.....Maybe I should become a gypsy!!!
Airshow this weekend, but we're not goin'. They shuttle you out in buses and it's hot. I'm a whiner so there. We saw them practicing from our backyards yesturday. They were SO loud. Gan was scared at first, but then wanted more. Gan wanted to watch the jets w/his cat. Boy he loves that cat. He openly tells the cat he loves it and kisses it...........such a catlover...not a fighter.
I'm a rambler.
Headin' home soon for 2 holidays w/family. I hope I don't go insane. Vickie likes her space, and I won't have it for a LONG time. <---third person again..*eye twitching* I LOVE my family, but I need my space. Plus I'm used to not living close to them, so I can deal small doses of family. The major thing is just the kiddoes gettin' annoyed w/each other....and Gan fights back now....so we'll see how this goes......might have some fight club moments.......*ponders* Nah it should all be fine. *crosses fingers*
Stop with the rambling and put Gannon down for a nap you putz......<-----coo coo bananas....
Onward! I have not been hardcore thrifting in a LONG time. So I have nothing to post! Ugh. My duties of thrifting have failed. Fail. I DID buy a Banana Republic shirt for $6! It is purple w/lace and big fun buttons. :) That was a score, and I love it. Love. Mmmmmmm....I want Taco Bell....
Off track.....FOCUS! Wee man has seem to adjust...sort...FINALLY! That past couple days have went by like a breeze. He was very good in Costco today. :) Kudos wee man! Plus he's giving me hug and kisses....my wee man? I know it's insane! Today we was "reading" a book in the cart, but making up his own story to the words. He likes to whisper stuff, and use different voices. Such a performer. At one of my gal's abodes he even put on a princess dress and danced w/the other girls. ;) It was only 5 mins, but it was cute! "He can dance if he wants to...he can leave his friend's behind."<----that would be Todd saying this. ;)
Sent 4 packages to Todd and it costed $50! Not too shabby, but still a blow to the bank account. Hope it all gets to him, cuz he needs this stuff! Poor guy's gotta eat somethin' other then MRE's. :P He'll come back skinnier then me, and Vickie's not havin' that....<---third person talk...coo coo.
Excitement! The weekend of Nov 10th or so me and a gal pal are goin' to Fredricksburg! First overnight outting w/children. I hope to do w/the Gan every month til Daddy comes home, so this will be the first test. Gonna make this kid LOVE to travel. Maybe he'll become a gypsy.....Maybe I should become a gypsy!!!
Airshow this weekend, but we're not goin'. They shuttle you out in buses and it's hot. I'm a whiner so there. We saw them practicing from our backyards yesturday. They were SO loud. Gan was scared at first, but then wanted more. Gan wanted to watch the jets w/his cat. Boy he loves that cat. He openly tells the cat he loves it and kisses it...........such a catlover...not a fighter.
I'm a rambler.
Headin' home soon for 2 holidays w/family. I hope I don't go insane. Vickie likes her space, and I won't have it for a LONG time. <---third person again..*eye twitching* I LOVE my family, but I need my space. Plus I'm used to not living close to them, so I can deal small doses of family. The major thing is just the kiddoes gettin' annoyed w/each other....and Gan fights back now....so we'll see how this goes......might have some fight club moments.......*ponders* Nah it should all be fine. *crosses fingers*
Stop with the rambling and put Gannon down for a nap you putz......<-----coo coo bananas....
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Time flies when you're having fun....
Jesica left today, and it's a sad panda moment. She kept me less stressed, and we reconnected. So to see her go was ubber sad. Ubber. We made a quilt! It's Gan's old tee shirts w/fleece backing. I learned how to run a sewing machine! Go me! Plus Jes got me cool things to get me started w/making MORE quilts. I just need a machine of my own, cuz we borrowed one. :) I talked to Todd on the phone! Excitement! I have a huge box to send him next week, since he basically has nothing. Poor dude. The Post Office will be my home next week.
Gan has been overwhelming that past 2 days. OmG. So bad that we were invited to a potluck, I brokedown, and we left only staying an hour. On the way to the car he was stating how he missed Daddy. Poor wee dude. :( SO his behavior, plus me about to start is causing a crazy emotional rollercoaster on both ends! Holy boxed tissues Batman! Plus I have to bribe him to go shoppin'. Typical boy. HATES shoppin'. He wants to go to 'his' section, get something and leave.....typical man in the making.....
Otherwise meh life is life. ;) I turned the guest room into a playroom, so Gan's stuff wouldn't overflow into the living room. SO he has space, and I have space. All is right with the world.
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